There's nothing wrong with walking along memory lane. It adds perspective and let's face it -- it's fun. But lately, I am trapped on that street. Time may not heal things but it's supposed to add perspective. I'm not sure about that either. With me, it's much easier to get wrapped up in the good times, the easier times, the days that I thought all was right with the world.
This is why we have girlfriends.
And parents. And dogs.
Did I mention I had a date last night with the love of my life? The man I have shared most of my adult life with and the man who is capable of evoking every emotion and feeling with a glance or a touch...
Scary stuff for the faint of heart.
I recently plopped myself in my minister's office. I pretended to talk about committee stuff for a while until I gathered the courage to ask him (again!) for guidance about my marriage and impending divorce. Like all talented and well-schooled counselors, he was useless. I believe he said, "You're looking for me to tell you what to do and I can't do that." (He's not useless -- that was a joke!)
What he said, and it resonated, was this:
"You've already made your decision. You just need to act on it."
Yes, I do know it's time to look to the future. I may never love another man the way I loved this one.
But who knows? Maybe some really good stuff is out there once I choose to look forward.
Some really good stuff IS out there!
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