Yesterday, I put my head in my hands and said a prayer for a lost friend. I received the information that someone I cared about committed suicide.
Very shortly after my ex-husband and I separated, we lost a friend to suicide. This is always heartbreaking and perplexing to me. Is it money? You can't handle that your life has taken a tragic turn? Is it love? Is it having no one in your corner?
Frankly, I believe that every single person has SOMEONE in their corner. Just look around a little harder.
My Aunt Grace committed suicide in my childhood. I was at Aunt Hazel's when we received the word and I'll never forget it.
Take your religious beliefs, your family history and a million other thoughts about suicide. Roll them around your brain. Ok, now you're in my world.
I believe the lyrics from the Kenny Chesney song, "Everybody wants to go to heaven but nobody wants to go right now." I believe that Jack Kevorkian (Dr. Death) is onto something when he's helping terminally ill people make the transition.
To the best of my knowledge, my friend did not fit either of these situations. He was divorced -- sad but not terminal. He had two teenage daughters who worshipped him. He may have lost some money, a big title and a lot of the perks associated with being a Big Player.
Now he's dead. I will go to a funeral this week. I don't understand it at all.
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I agree with everything you said,but I can understand why some people feel that suicide is the only way to "fix" their life. I know first hand how your problems can consume your very waking thought and if you do manage to go to sleep, your problems are all you dream about. Friends cannot fix your issues and sometimes you don't want to share these things with other people. Just let me grieve in my own way. I love you, you know who this is coming from so I won't sign my name.
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